Archive for February, 2016

Senior year, take two.

Posted: February 1, 2016 in Uncategorized

Senior year, back at home.

I feel old, really old. Most of the people I know are graduates already, and the rest are either graduating this semester or the next. I have no idea how we got here.

Most of my current close friends are younger than I am, and I thankfully have the privilege to listen to their thoughts and hear their reflections about their different life phases every now and then. I relate a lot to everything they say. And sometimes I miss that too. I miss the innocence. I miss the effect I used to have on people, and how proud they always made me feel.

It actually feels good to be back. It feels different. But for the first time in the last three years of my life, I really don’t know what to expect. I’ve made all the possible friends I can. I’ve done all the activities I ever wanted to be part of. I’ve felt all the feelings. I feel like this is going to be a pretty stagnant year of my life. The last year and a half were the peak of my life, and now that it’s all over, the curve is sliding back down and it doesn’t seem like I’m doing any effort to push it back up.

I’m starting the semester with a job, a language in progress, and no plans to join any student organizations whatsoever, which is a first. I can’t believe I’ve reached this phase.

I guess this year is going to be more about listening and observing, because I’ve already done most of the talking and working through the last couple of years. And it’s also going to be the year of farewells. Waving goodbye to this campus, its memories, and its people, is going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.

Nevertheless, I’m looking forward to this year. I’m looking forward to this new beginning.